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Feb. 7th, 2010 03:14 pm
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 This is a goddamn nightmare. Right? Hah hah I'm going to wake up- he's going to wake up right?. They'll be okay.  

[Matt does not cry what are you talking about nooo.]

No, that was him a-and Terra... fuck. And that wound and the blood and- holy fucking shit. Not sleeping tonight. Not sleeping until he wakes the fuck up.

We're supposed to go down together. And since he's still here.. right here. He'll wake up. They said that. It was a video. Why am I getting so upset over a virused... virtual reality video... h-hah.


This shit isn't funny anymore! 

...this is a new layout lmao

Date: 2010-02-07 08:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hornyattorney.livejournal.com
I don't think anyone would blame you for getting upset. Even if we've been told they'll be all right, it still happened.
From: [identity profile] quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com
...No one better not blame me!

I don't... I don't know that! I don't know that he'll be "all right". He- I saw him die. That isn't "all right" to me!

That-- that's him dead. My best fucking friend.

XD well, this one's pretty nice!

Date: 2010-02-07 08:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hornyattorney.livejournal.com
They say this happened before, I think, or something similar. And he's still there, right? ...He probably won't be 'all right' but I think it'll be up to you to help him get better - when he comes back.
From: [identity profile] quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com
When is that? How long do I have to wait for that? I'll wait... as long as I fucking have to - for him to come back. I won't leave, I won't sleep, I won't ... I can't. He needs someone to help him.

Right now, I don't know how he's feeling or where he fucking is! I just - I can't ask for help on this because no one can fucking help.

omg I didn't see the cakes before! Cute!

Date: 2010-02-07 09:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hornyattorney.livejournal.com
Well, er... there doesn't seem to be all that many people left. I guess it must be when someone wins?

I'm sorry.

right! X3!

Date: 2010-02-07 09:25 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com
Last Person Standing, I guess.

I just. ....I don't want to lose him this way.

Date: 2010-02-07 09:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hornyattorney.livejournal.com
...I don't think you'll lose him. I know that doesn't count for much but in the circumstances, it's the only thing that can be said.

Date: 2010-02-07 10:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com
I just.. don't know how to believe that. You know?

Call me selfish, but I want him standing right now. That's all.

Date: 2010-02-07 10:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hornyattorney.livejournal.com
That's not selfish at all. I just wish I could help you in some way.

Date: 2010-02-07 11:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com
Yeah... hah, I wish I could help too. Just, you know. Mello.

Date: 2010-02-07 11:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hornyattorney.livejournal.com
I don't think it'll last much longer, either way.

Date: 2010-02-07 11:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com
We can hope, can't we.

Augh, what the hell else can we do?

Date: 2010-02-07 11:25 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hornyattorney.livejournal.com
There's nothing we can do and that's the worst part of it. ...I guess you just need to make sure you're there when he wakes up.

Date: 2010-02-07 11:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com
...Of course I'll be here!

Date: 2010-02-07 09:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] east-darkhorse.livejournal.com
[BRB Finding someone that can wolrdhop me there :|]

Date: 2010-02-07 10:09 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] east-darkhorse.livejournal.com
[Give me a second man..I'm charming Akako...

Well let's say I'm there, that knocks on the door mean that you better hurry up and open it or I will knock it down.]

[actioon]

Date: 2010-02-07 11:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com
[Sorry he doesn't hear the first few knocks. He's a little out of it, but he gets up and opens the door, a little surprised to see Prussia standing there.]

Uh- yo, Gilbert.

[actioon]

Date: 2010-02-07 11:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] east-darkhorse.livejournal.com
[Prussia enters and closes the door whit his foot

Ey. [You really look like crap Mattie. And he will always deny this if you ever broght it up, but he's pulling Matt closer into a comforting hug. Geez, you people require such a high maintenance.]

[actioon]

Date: 2010-02-07 11:27 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com
[Ch, he'll deny he ever needs it, right now, but if he thinks one more second about this mess he's going to go insane.

He won't push you away, Prussia - he's actually comfortable enough to let you hug him- even if he hates showing this weakness right now. But if theres nothing he can do...]

Re: [actioon]

Date: 2010-02-07 11:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] east-darkhorse.livejournal.com
[He's used to hug Spain, god knows that the other nation is emotional too, so he doesn't mind that much as long as you keep your mouth shut once it's done.

Take your time.]

[actioon]

Date: 2010-02-07 11:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com
[Augh, he's going to hide he's crying you know, even if his voice comes out in hiccuping whispers for the first few words.]

Why... why would they show us this? Every day fighting and deaths and- it's so damn personal.

[This was taking him completely out of his comfort zone. He didn't like this, and it sure as hell wasn't "all right".]

[actioon]

Date: 2010-02-08 12:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] east-darkhorse.livejournal.com
[He will be a decent person and not mention it even if he notices.]

Because this community is fucked up in too many ways to count. [He's trying to drag Matt to the couch so he can sit down is it working?]

Re: [actioon]

Date: 2010-02-08 12:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com
[it probably won't be too hard, as long as he isn't far from Mello, he doesn't have much energy to put up with much.]

Why.. I don't get it. Why Mello, huh? I know he's good but-- when I heard he was in this shit I didn't think.. didn't think of him dying. I couldn't- and it was there. Right there in front of me.

[actioon]

Date: 2010-02-08 12:49 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] east-darkhorse.livejournal.com
I don't think it follows a pattern, it just chose people..Mello and kasumi are nothing a like but both are there.

[Prussia has the strength to force him to move but he doesn't want to he harsh on Matt when he's like this. So he just moves him to the couch so they're sitting, his arm still around Matt's shoulders.] He is *not dying.

[actioon]

Date: 2010-02-08 01:03 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com
Then where is he? Why isn't he awake? He died ... in there so, why hasn't he come back here?! I don't know if he's lost, or if he'll wake up here again. I don't know how any of this works.

He isn't dead here but... if he doesn't wake up soon, he could die for good.

I can't-- I can't do anything. I'm stuck here while he's.. I don't know where!
Edited Date: 2010-02-08 01:04 am (UTC)

[actioon]

Date: 2010-02-08 01:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] east-darkhorse.livejournal.com
I don't know either, but the ones who saw thsi before said that they will come back. [Prussia was not made for comfort Matt, he doesn't know how to do it even if he tries.]

We can take care of his body until his soul arrives.

[actioon]

Date: 2010-02-08 02:05 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com
I don't care what the others saw before. Why- it doesn't matter. The others aren't Mello, you know? It's not... this is happening now, to him. He isn't like some people you know?

He doesn't have any special skill or come from a world where there are crazy technological advances-- he's a normal, fucking human being. I want to believe he's okay but I don't know. Okay?

[his voice is quiet again, and his eyes keep moving from Mello to the floor, unsure where exactly to keep them.]

I'm scared- I... I'd like for him to wake up, now.

[actioon]

Date: 2010-02-08 03:13 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] east-darkhorse.livejournal.com
I know but he's smart, that's a lot more than what other people have. I saw him in battle.... [Hell , they battled together during his first virus.]...he's not so easy to kill.

[There's a pause, and Prussia is caressing Matthew's back now. His tone of voice softens too.]

Being scared is not bad, even if the feeling sucks, It means that you care for him.

[actioon]

Date: 2010-02-08 03:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com
I do... care. You know? He's...

I can't listen to anyone when they tell me he'll be okay. Or, that this'll be over. How do I know that? I want to believe it but ... it's hard enough to believe any of this already - and seeing him die. It's so fucking hard-- it's Mello not just some stranger!

[He's tired. Exhausted. He hasn't slept since, he isn't sure when.. but he can't start now. Still he lets himself relax just enough into that soothing hand that touches his back, even though his body is tense.]

That was Mello in there... even though he's right here. You got to understand, Gilbert he's-- he's really all I've got.

Re: [actioon]

Date: 2010-02-08 04:04 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] east-darkhorse.livejournal.com
[He listens carefully, still caressing his back to try to calm down with contact. Only when Matt murmurs the last part he dares to speak again.]

No, he's not all you got.

[actioon]

Date: 2010-02-08 04:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com
He's always been there. You know...?

[Matt looks up, his eyes are tired and quiet, and he stares at Prussia with a denying look of desperation.]

He'd tell me to stop worrying, but I can't. What do I do, when it feels like I'm losing this weird part of myself. I tell myself he'll be okay because I can't fucking picture anything else.

[actioon]

Date: 2010-02-08 07:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] east-darkhorse.livejournal.com
he would be doing the same if he was in your position. But no one is going to lose anybody. [He gives Matt a shoulder squeeze.]

[actioon]

Date: 2010-02-08 07:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com
No one knows that. The "rules" or -- shit, whatever they are could change. I don't know that.

[A part of him shrugs Prussia away. He isn't used to people being around, after all.]

[actioon]

Date: 2010-02-08 08:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] east-darkhorse.livejournal.com
Sometimes rules aren't everything. [Prussia frowns a little, but smiles again the next moment.] Besides...[He moves a hand to the back of Matt's neck in a quick moment, pressuring a point.] You won't have to worry about it for a bit.

[actioon]

Date: 2010-02-08 08:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com
What-? [Matt only has a few seconds to look at him before Prussia presses, falling out cold against him.]

[actioon]

Date: 2010-02-08 10:29 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] east-darkhorse.livejournal.com
[Prussia waits for some seconds, feeling the weight of the boy against him. He knows that the bed is enough for too person and Matt wanted to be with Mello so...Gil stands up, carrying Matt in his arms and goes to the bedroom.

Once one boy is lying next to the other he goes to find a seat to spend the rest of the night in and waits.]

Date: 2010-02-08 09:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] not-that-lockon.livejournal.com
My brother went as well.

Date: 2010-02-08 07:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com
Nh.. I'm sorry to hear that. I hope.. he comes back soon.

Date: 2010-02-08 07:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] not-that-lockon.livejournal.com
Yeah. Your friend too, you know?

Date: 2010-02-08 07:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com
Thanks, Lyle. I'm hoping this doesn't last much longer.

Date: 2010-02-10 08:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com
They say it won't, at least.

I'm not as patient as I thought I was, I guess.

Date: 2010-02-13 11:57 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] not-that-lockon.livejournal.com
I don't think anyone can really blame us for that under the circumstances.

Date: 2010-02-15 12:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com
Augh, well.. they better not.

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